I am crying.

Yeah, I am crying. For over a year, CoH is the only game I have ever had any desire to play. I RP and I love my characters, most of whom are based solidly in the CoH universe and wouldn't translate well to some other game... so I'm losing them, too.

I feel sick.

I am not crying but am very sad and angry. I also feel bad for all the employees at Paragon Studios.

I've been here since early beta. This is just... I just can't

I'm sitting here thinking, "Where am I going to go? What am I supposed to do?"

I stopped drinking and going out when I started playing CoH. It was cheaper, if I was soloing I could stop and do other stuff on another machine and in general I think life was better. I became more creative, writing millions of words over the last 8 years for non-gamer oriented materials and fiction.

All of the old places I used to hang out are gone now, plowed under and bricked over by gentrification.

When I saw the notice I thought, "Where am I supposed to go? Where else can I read/hear constant chatter and know that there were other people "in here" with me. So much time.

I feel cast violently adrift and while I've pulled my life vest's inflation cord, there's nothing but blue horizon.

My old haunts are gone. My new haunt is gone.

Maybe gaming just needs to stop. I'll join a gym and find someone in meatspace to haunt again. Then again, that was 8 years ago and now a days meatspace seems to be for the young.

I am crying with you. 8((

Me too. Very much so.
Lisa.

In all honesty, this game curbed my WoW Addiction.

In WoW I would log on and spend the first few hours crafting and moving market items around and then shuffling through assorted Bank toons and mail boxes. Then I would actually play a toon and figure out what I needed to do and what gear I needed to get to get this specific toon an extra point of DPS.

End result I didn't want OT at work and would rush to come home just to play. I would take days off just to play especially when I just spent all night playing. Work was my 2nd interest. Granted my job has a union and I have 5 weeks of vacation to work with plus a few extra days, but those days went fast during those times.

This was a game I could solo and log off when I wanted, with no commitment to people when I didn't want to have any. I didn't need 5 crafting and bank toons and all the other silliness.

I have to say I'm a bit of a wuss atm, as I am choked up myself.

I'm a bit pissed at NCSoft as well and I have to say I hope GW2 crashes and burns on principal.

Take care all

I will miss Omi.

I will miss him so much.

Stopped myself twice. It's coming soon though.

Just wanted to say it hurts losing the game. I'm not crying...I hardly ever cry...I had hydrogen peroxide poured in my left eye and only teared up...didn't cry at my grandfather's funeral recently and didn't get depressed when my gf broke things off a few months back.

But I think I might cry if the forums disappear. I probably spend more time here than in game. It hurts thinking that the personalities I met around here will probably be going their seperate ways...that the long standing forum RP thread that I based my main character around, Superhero 101 around 4 years ago as well as Superhero 102 started around 2 years ago, will go unfinished.

Looking on the bright side, when I parted ways with my first MMO, FFXI, it was like breaking free of a prison and walking back into the open air of the world but losing CoX, the forums and the awesome posters that participated in our little RP group feels like a story lost to the ages...a book never finished destroyed before anyone could read and contemplate it. It's not saddening to me, just frustrating.

Although the loss of the game cements the property of my characters in my hands, it destroys the story they are based on...or at least leaves it unfinished. I won't let my characters die since some I've kept with me since I was a kid, but the story that my friends formed together with mine and there characters dies with these forums.

That spark of enthusiasm that I get seeing new updates to the thread has dimmed with the conclusion of this game along with my enthusiasm for video games in general. I doubt I'll bother playing any MMOs after this and probably won't seriously bother with next gen stuff either. My Wii, PS3 and my gaming PC in general are rather useless to me now as I see other opportunities rise, pasts interests fall.

I wish I could say I was sad that CoX will be no more but I'm not. I'm frustrated because I'm scared because I'm free. What I and all of us do with that freedom is up to us. But I do wish the devs and all the players the best for greener pastures in our futures.

Not crying, no, but the saddest I've been in a very long time.

I'm about to close on a house on Tuesday and was so excited and then I heard the news... It's like getting hit by a truck after winning the lottery...

The more threads I read, the more I'm crying.

Well I am off work, at home, in the home office. In front of me stand a pile of City of Heroes boxes I had not put away since I moved in here recently.

Wife is not home and I'm here alone.

Now I'm starting to actually feel like crying some...

I wasn't at first, and then I began to think about how much this game influenced me as a person.... And then the tears came lol

I am upset. I am angry. I am confused.

Also crying.

Thank God I found out about this AFTER my job interview today and not BEFORE. I'd have been hard pressed to explain to the interviewers why I was in tears the whole time.

Michelle
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Samuraiko/Dark_Respite