Really depressed today

I think I noted in my previous post that I suffer from depression--actually a very bad case of it. And, being reclusive, I don't have much social life. Well, the depression is hitting me hard today.

The loss of this game is going to blow such a huge hole in my life. I really don't know what I'm going to do without it. I'm writing letters and signing petitions, but I'm still very afraid.

I'm trying to play all the content i have never gotten around to. After nearly 6 years, last night I joined my first Hami raid. But a pall seems to hang over everything.

sorry to be grousing.

You are not alone Gothica. -=hugs=-

We are doing are absolute best to try to save the game, and with our driving force the devs are also not giving up just yet

they havent gotten anything concrete yet but they are trying to work out a deal with ncsoft to keep the game

dont give up just yet!

Drink Responsibly.
Im sorry your feeling under the weather today.When I feel bad, I try to remember to read something on Crac'ked dot com.
That's not a link, btw.Probably mispelled.Peace.

Gothica, I can relate to most of what you're saying. Bless your heart! CoH is going to be major loss to my wife and me as well. I wish we would have met in the game. Most of our VG have the same issues,

Gothica, I sent you a PM btw. Read it real good, real fast, or POW!
lol

"A true hero has the strength to stand against evil
without wavering where all others despair,
even if it means standing alone." - Kragothe Valour

Gothica, I understand how you are feeling because I am feeling the same thing.

I have always suffered from a streak of depression and when I heard the news about City being closed I feel into a state of bleakness I have not felt in a long time.

I have sent emails, letters but in my mind's eye I can see the office help tossing them into the trashcan unread....which really doesn't help matters. My last email was to Nexon. On their website they said to include a business plan, but I wrote a letter instead.

The email has not bounced back yet, so mayhaps someone there will read it.

Anyways, the fat lady lady has not sang yet. NCSOFT is apparently talking with Paragon, which does show a little promise. There is an NDA in effect so the Devs can't share with us what is going on.

I know I said the Devil has his claws in NCSOFT, but when I said that I was in deep agony. NCSOFT is a company composed of many people, it found itself in the red, and probably closed Paragon in full panic mode...or maybe the major players were on vacation or on a business trip, and, the junior members who were left wanted to make themselves look good....whatever happened we will never know, but if NCSOFT needs an inflow of cash selling City Of Heroes sounds like a smart thing to do.

If they do need the cash, and don't sell...then I guess I can go back to my Devil theory and who wants to do business with a company run by the Devil anyway...did I make you smile?

I guess the purpose of this rambling response is tell you to keep a flicker of hope alive...because if they need money, and are not possessed by the Devil,(which I bet a LOTG Recharge they aren't) then there is a good chance they will sell.

Hugs, hugs, and more hugs.

Lisa @Nova Tigress of Victory Server

Thank you all for replying and caring. it really means a lot to me. I'm not throwing in the towel and am following and joining in the efforts to save the game. it's just that some days my black dog won't leave me alone.

Gothica, when that absurd puppy won't let you alone, whether or not you feel like it, SMILE!

When you smile most times your mood will improve.

Listening to lively music will help too..not depressing dark music, lively music such as Katy Perry's Teen Age Dream album. I usually play COH listening to a mix of songs composed of Katy Perry, Cowboy Mouth (Jenny Says FTW) Kim Possible, Night Wish, and some Led Zepplin.

Oh, another thing you might like...when I heard COH was closing, I went to Big Fish Games and looked for Virtual Villagers. To my delight not only did they have the first two, which I have played, but there were three more versions. I bought all three of the new ones (new to me) and am now playing Secret City.

Go to bigfish.com, and do a search for Virtual Villagers. You can Google for hints on progressing in the game and I encourage you to do so.

Again...hugs.

Lisa.

I too feel saddened at the prospect of CoH going dark and to never again flying the skys of Paragon.


Your Guardian family is here for you and there are a lot of people working very hard to save COH.

I'm not from Guardian, but...

*big friendly hugs*

The great thing you're doing though, is expressing yourself and being honest. That is truly great and always a great sign.

And Lisa, along with many other things the others have said, is right on.
And smiling and laughter is amazing medicine.

Just in case you, or anyone else, gets some smiles from this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYxgjJK7kD0 I'm sharing it.

Harpo and Chico Marx playing the piano together... something about their absolutely incredible musical skills and their comedic skills and just their characters' innocence (well, Harpo, at least) just makes me gush, hehe.

Certainly are funnier routines of theirs... they really make me laugh... but may not be your cup of tea. Still, I doubt many would not find enjoyment from that clip.

Anyway, seek out some laughter. Sometimes, honestly, I just force myself to smile, regardless of how I feel. And even just that helps more than you generally suspect.

Also know that any comfort you found from this game, will exist in you and outside of you regardless if this game goes down or not.

Still... we'll all do what we can to prevent this injustice from occurring...
Okay, enough from me!

*more hugs*



Also, Gothica... thank you for reaching out and speaking honestly. You are not alone in how you feel. And it helps us when others articulate our own feelings and situations as well.

I understand exactly how you feel. When the world is scary, the City/Isles are safe.

We aren't closed yet and if we all do what we can, we might not be.

I know it is hard to think/to do stuff when the darkness hits. Maybe writing that letter to NC is too much today? Try tomorrow. Maybe you can't read and comment on a news artical supporting us today? Try tomorrow.

If CoX is your lifeline, let saving CoX be part of that lifeline.

Brutally honest posts like the ones in this thread from people who are not afraid to say how much CoX means to them is why we should all fight to save CoX. Even if we can't make those brave posts ourselves.

*hugs*

Thank you all! This has turned into a wonderful thread. This is why I like CoX so much--the community.

I am sending out my letters today. I am even going to FedEx them! That will get Mr. Kim's attention, I hope.

*pounces Gothica* Hi! =)

I understand the depression. I've been on various meds for fifteen years. It's hard, and each day can be a struggle.

I understand how much it can mean to log in to CoH and let the goofy chatter from a couple of the channels wash over you and gently remind that yes, there is other things, and yes, there can be hope in the world, and gosh, maybe all these people aren't so bad.

The messages from Zwillinger and Positron yesterday hit me hard, and I read the worst into them. I was lucky enough to be reading the Titan forums at the right time and to have someone get out a rolled up newspaper and smack us into sense again. (go this thread: http://www.cohtitan.com/forum/index....ic,5220.0.html and look for Victoria Victrix posts.)

NCSoft has had to respond to us, and we've gotten through to them. There's professional people working on it. There's progress being made.

Keep up the good fight, and know that you're not alone.