It is so not wrong to cry, man.
Hey, I remember you, you fixed my computer once I think.
/you've probably been told that a million times
... I seriously just did the slash thing purely subconsciously, I'd forgotten you used to do that.
Doom.
Yep.
This is really doom.
Crying over something as unqiue and wonderful as the game and community we have here is perfectly understandable - but it's also not game over yet.
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My eyes water up. I'm not cryin'... no. I'm a MAN dammit. I will NOT DO IT.
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Eh, it used to be considered a sign of manliness to cry, showed you cared about something enough to have it affect you. emotional deadness is not really a healthy trait. w e cry because we still feel.
Friday: Shock, disbelief, rage, a trip to the liquor store
Saturday: Grief, imbibing the product of said liquor store trip, play from waking up to bed
Sunday: Nostalgia, a bit more imbibing, playing favorite characters with friends, community MSR, migraine, recovering from said migraine now
Monday: I have to leave COH to go to a cookout, to be followed by more playing and possible imbibing. There's still a lot left in the bottle because I bought a 1.75L. The occasion seemed to call for it.
*Maybe the imbibing had something to do with the migraine, but maybe not. After all I've had migraines for 15 years and don't often imbibe. More likely it was the effect of staring at this monitor for almost 2 days straight.
Together we entered a city of strangers, we made it a city of friends, and we leave it a City of Heroes. - Sweet_Sarah
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Governments have fallen to the power of social media. Gaming companies can too.
No worries tex, most people feel this way after running a TF with me.
"Null is as much an argument "for removing the cottage rule" as the moon being round is for buying tennis shoes." -Memphis Bill
I was sobbing my eyes out when I wrote Epitath, my thank you letter to the Devs and my little short play about saying goodbye to my characters. As we speak I have a roll of paper towels on the top of my printer just in case I'm stupid enough to try some MORE creative writing about the game closing.
My mind wanders so often you've probably seen its picture on milk cartons. - Me... the first person version of the third person Steelclaw
I haven't lost it yet. I still firmly believe that there's a chance we haven't fought our last battle; I think that hope, no matter how ridiculous some may think it is, may be what's holding me together. That said, I made a trip to the store earlier and was listening to my iPod. "Rise of the Heroes" is on it....I almost had to pull over....
It'll probably hit me like a bus when my account lapses in a few days.
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Thank you guys for posting these feelings and thoughts. I have felt really silly tearing up (a lot) over a video game. I never once thought it would hit me like this when CoH closed down, even though I always imagined it happening differently. (I'm pretty sure everyone did.)
I'm getting better today. I still mist up, but there are less open tears. There may be more later, as we get closer to the very end. But I will be there, on my favorite characters on both accounts. And I will never forget everything that is so awesome here. Because that's what we should do for things we love - cherish their memory.
Blue
American Steele: 50 BS/Inv
Nightfall: 50 DDD
Sable Slayer: 50 DM/Rgn
Fortune's Shadow: 50 Dark/Psi
WinterStrike: 47 Ice/Dev
Quantum Well: 43 Inv/EM
Twilit Destiny: 43 MA/DA
Red
Shadowslip: 50 DDC
Final Rest: 50 MA/Rgn
Abyssal Frost: 50 Ice/Dark
Golden Ember: 50 SM/FA
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I thought I could do it. Honest.
What a puss. :|
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Friday: Shock. Disbelief. Anger. Sadness. Play anyway, dammit all, I was workin' on the TF Commander accolade and badge for Thing of Bigness, SS/WP Brute, Pinnacle, 50+, and I was GOING to achieve it.
Saturday: Still disbelieving. Sadness. Determination to go the distance with the game. More work on ToB.
Sunday: Motorcycle ride with my group in the morning. Still thinkin' about things. Get home, freshen up (It's HOT and HUMID down here...) log in, and attack the last three TFs needed... YAY!
And... I'm.. suddenly emotionally spent. I thank everyone in Pinnbadges for their help in my getting the accolade done. And... well up just a little. But fight it down. I have to exit, I just... can't anymore. Not now.
Cruise the forums. Read more stuff. Good stuff. Not so good stuff. Maybe reply here and there... Smile at some... get a little huffy, start to write a reply, then delete it, at others...
Then, I made this (where you can read why I came up with it...)
http://boards.cityofheroes.com/showthread.php?t=296542
And... after I posted it... And as I'm typing this...
My eyes water up. I'm not cryin'... no. I'm a MAN dammit. I will NOT DO IT.
But... they're there. The sadness of my eyes is a physical reality. Not streaming.. I can still see... but... there they are. Along with this huge *** lump in my throat.
Just....
Frack.
I am going to miss this place, the game, you people, even the ones I've never even talked with. Because we're all in this... and we're all bein' shot in the heart. I don't know how... or if... I'll be able to keep in touch with the lot of you. I'll try though.
Pinnacle represent.
City of Heroes represent.
There will never be another game like this for me, personally, ever again. Because it is more than the game... it's the entire shebang. The people on both sides of it, the creativity I got to play in for my little corner of the world... Making my OWN lore... the game is the glue. It's not about the game... it's about the rest of it. THAT is what I'm upset about.
The whole shebang. Thrown under a bus.
It shouldn't be this way.
And... well... so. There it is. I broke down a little. I'm sorry... and yet, I'm not. Defiant to the end, I will play on.
Brawling Humiliator, my Brawl Only Brute, will be my last logon. I will damn well take a freakin' day off to be here from Thursday night, through the night, and on into Friday and keep on going until the last damn gasp of electricity is coursing through the Pinnacle server, until, on Friday, BH will be frozen in time, hopefully in the middle of throwing his very last Brawl, with Build up just having been activated, and the penultimate strike against whatever foe he is battling, Mace in hand... defiantly NEVER USED ONCE.
NCSoft, you are some.... well. Nothing is ever gained from angrily typing against somebody. Fill in the dots, figure it out.
Mike
/And I just lost it. The tears... they sting.
August 31, 2012. A Day that will Live in Infamy. Or Information. Possibly Influence. Well, Inf, anyway. Thank you, Paragon Studios, for what you did, and the enjoyment and camaraderie you brought.
This is houtex, aka Mike, signing off the forums. G'night all. - 10/26/2012
Well... perhaps I was premature about that whole 'signing off' thing... - 11-9-2012