/me is a charter member *nods* :P
I thought that was the basic mode of every artist on the planet <,< you go from "I am the best person in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE" at some moments, to "I am the most horribly lame fraud in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE" at others.
Being an artist is like wearing those two masks used to symbolize theatre - big grinny happy face, big giant frowny face <,< depends on the day of the week I says!
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its because we are all emo about our own art 
I look at others art and see them doing amazing things I instantly get jealous and supportive
I run on and post why I like what their doing all the while grumbling "why couldn't I think,do,post that first
yeah <;_;> lol, you should see me on the NaNoWriMo forums (they're down right now >.<
I'm such a friggin' whiner about my own writing <;.;> People are like "I LOVE that idea!" and I'm like "yeah <;_;> but its cliche as all hell and all my characters are mary sue and marty stu's <sigh> you all hate me <_ _>" "What?! I like it..." "No you don't... you hate me <;.;>" "... You're weirding me out..." "See? <_ _> /fail"
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Heh, I'm an actor by training and profession, and it's totally true. About 25% of the time, you're convinced you're a fraud, and the most crapful, talentless person to ever accidentally get put up on stage by anyone ever. 25% of the time, you're positive you're the most brilliant, charming, sexy thing that has ever walked, ridden, swam or flown across the earth. The other 50% of the time, you're pretty sure you're fat or dismally unattractive, but at least you're sort of good at something.
Oh self-loathing, how I loathe thee.
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Hahahaha <,< yes, so so true.
Its the weird thing about art - I think its this:
An artist *requires* some 'extra' ego just to work, because you *have* to have enough hubris to believe "Someone *might* actually want to see something I've created!"
But, this is balanced precariously on a razor-thin edge. Even if you succeed, you may feel you 'cheated' somehow; its so SO easy to get down on yourself. Art is the most glorious hell ever.
<o.@> Its farked up. I love/hate it! <@_@>
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Im always amazed when an artist I like/love disparges their talents
while im sitting their drooling over some fancy line worik,shading or cross hatching wonder "what the heck is he talking about "
hehehe >.< same with me <X_X>;
What's even crazier, imho; is how easy it is to then turn around and do it to yourself... I think I know what it is too though...
Its because the person who made it probably knows just about every flaw in the piece... and because its impossible to have true perfection; finding your 'peace' with it isn't easy <,< while the observer may not see ANY flaws <o.o>; and be wondering "WTH are you smoking?!"
... of course you prolly knew that <;-;> I told you I was feeling pedantic.
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I love it Scarf Girl. Very good piece in your unique style.
It is very scary though and I will need you to tuck me in tonight to keep me from having nightmares...
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hah :P I think Lady Grae would put me out like a light if I even tried that
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hah :P I think Lady Grae would put me out like a light if I even tried that
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Does that mean your also easy to turn on? <. .>
(Sorry >,<; <~_~> bad mind, bad <~_~>; but I must <;_;>
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yeah <;_;> lol, you should see me on the NaNoWriMo forums (they're down right now >.<
I'm such a friggin' whiner about my own writing <;.;> People are like "I LOVE that idea!" and I'm like "yeah <;_;> but its cliche as all hell and all my characters are mary sue and marty stu's <sigh> you all hate me <_ _>" "What?! I like it..." "No you don't... you hate me <;.;>" "... You're weirding me out..." "See? <_ _> /fail"
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o.O I've done nanowrimo the last 2 years. (oh my god... its almost november again *panic*) I hardly ever post (I'm such a lurker) what forum name do you use?
But yes, I've been known to just stare at something I did going "How awesome is that, I rock" 30 minutes later I see something someone else did and I am so disgusted by my work I can't even stand to be in the same room as it. (same piece)
With writing (my first artistic passion. Digital artz are kind ofa new gig for me) I obsess over a piece for days, tweaking word placement gramar, vocab, etc.. Everything I wrote before it is crap, and I will never write this well again... OR Its horrible, it will never be good enough, What am I even Thinking calling myself a writer? OR Go emo and use my wallowing in self loathing to push out something that makes me want to stab myself in the eyes with my own keyboard, then a few days later I look at it again (you never can resist the urge to tweak, no matter how bad) and think "hey... thats not half bad, I'm a decent writer."
wow.. rambling...
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One of my best friend's said 'Self Loathing is a sign of greatness. Motzart hated himself so much he drank himself to death. All great artists do it.' She's one of the more talented writer/artists I have the pleasure of knowing personally.
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yay the first meeting of the self loathing mutual admiration art society is concluded