Who else can't stop crying?

I haven't cried and may well not, but damn if my day (and beyond) wasn't ruined - I'd just finished making yet another cool alt when I got into Atlas and heard the news. "Don't take my toy away from me, I just got this one!"

I found it hard to sleep last night too. e.e

Last night, I watched the new Doctor Who, then went downstairs to watch some more episodes of Castle on DVD with my mum (Season 3, 21 & 22). With the eps watched, I gave mum a hug and was thinking about going upstairs like I usually do to play a bit of CoH.

Then I realised it wouldn't be possible all too soon, and I started crying.

For seven and a half (or more!) years, City of Heroes and the CoH boards have been part of my daily routine. As soon as the laptop is on the first tab to load in Firefox is the City Life boards. I'd wake up and check what new posts have gone on. I'd come home from work and check the new posts. I'd log in around 9pm for some RP or gaming.

(And hell do I like routine and normality. I'd get antsy and upset if someone had taken my chair in class back when I was a college student. That chair was mine because it had the shortest distance to a power socket for my laptop, didn't get the glare of the sun on it, gave me a nice view of the board, and let me check up on the boards after my quick typing speed had let me copy the notes down quicker than everyone writing on paper.)

When a Beta was on, I'd check the Dev and Community digests for patch notes and such. I got so excited hearing the plans for Ice Blast changes. So looking forwards to Quickfrost using those holds with more damage and oomph to them.

And pretty soon... that'll no longer be the case. So I dried my eyes, came upstairs, made a blog post on my feelings, checked the boards to see what was going on, and worked on some fiction.

I cried almost non-stop the first day or two and then I became physically ill from the experience. I slept in the entire day, got a huge headache it was rough. Now I'm avoiding almost all of the threads here because I don't want to start up again.

I was at work when I got the news and fortunately had something else to occupy my mind. Then I held it together pretty well until 11:00 ish, which is fortunate because it hit my poor girlfriend a lot harder.

It's been catching up with me.

I was on the road Fri/Sat and was able to hold it together then, but after arriving home this morning I've pretty much been a wreck all day.