Scary Rookery. Thursday

*peeks out from under her covers, clutching a Fedor-plushie tightly*

Is it safe to come out yet? Are you sure? I'll just.. stay under here until I know it's safe.

*pulls the blanket back over her head.

Boo!

*pours a couple of double espresso scary lattes and leaves one by the Neko lump*
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Morning Neko

*enters through a vent in a green mist, then materializes by the coffeemakers*

Greetings and salutations all. Hope you all had a good night. From the looks of it, Neko must have been watching scary movies all night. "They're coming to get you, Barbara ... "

*pours an extra large coffee and then drops some catnip leaves into Neko's coffee* Hope that helps

*sneaks out from the empty bookshelf*
RAWR!!!

*walks down from the attic lab wearing a black robe and hood covering his face. he comes down the stairs like he's floating down. moves over to where neko is and stops. points a finger outward pointing and slowly removes his hood.*

BBRR!!! who keeps messing with the thermostat!?! first its so dam hot all week i wake up sweating, so last night i decide to wear shorts instead f sweatpants and someone lowers the heat! now I'm cold and shaking like I've got the chills!




p.s. Two hours til 2xp weekend and I havent even updated my pc yet!!

*Crashes in throught the Skylight*

Good Morning fellow peeps!

*Grabs some industrial strength coffee*

So, who is all set for the Madness that is Double XP weekend?

No.. no scary movies here. I'm frightened by something much worse. People and real life. I didn't sleep well again last night. And I'm having trouble eating lately.

sigh... I really don't want to turn this place into a venue for my issues.. It's really not the place. I wanted to come up with a happy and fun topic. But no matter what these days, I can't shake the near pants-wetting terror I feel almost all the time lately. I wish I could afford to see my therapist.

You see, I've been on a kick lately for reading webcomics about people like me. On one hand, I find them to be very relateable and encouraging. On another hand, I find a bit of pointless jealousy, since naturally these characters always pass unless there is a story reason they don't. But that's silly and minor.

And finally, the problem being that they are also scaring the crap out of me. And I mean a real, personal and immediate fear. When making stories about TG people, the fact of violence often comes up. It is one of the biggest fears, and justifiably so.

So I'm caught between feelings of intense longing to be more myself openly and expressing myself more, and absolute terror in the seeming almost certainly that doing so could get me attacked, ***** and/or killed. I'm trying to fight it, but the hormones and mood swings sure aren't helping. Yet through the terror, I know going back won't work anymore. I can't go back to hiding. I want to shout it to the world and correct the people that see me wrong... but I know if I do, eventually someone is going to take offense. And the results could be... very bad.

I'm sorry to be such a downer. But you people are my friends, and you've been so understanding of me. I just.. I have to keep getting these things out so I can keep them from becoming to overwhelming. I'm sorry.

Thank you Shecky. And I know that life is full of risk no matter who you are. On the other hand. I'm just adding more risk on top of myself because of what I am... You've got your garden variety psychos, people who hate women, people who hate homosexuals, and people who hate trans people... it doesn't happen so much with adults really. And I was picked on and attacked often enough when I was in school because of the way I acted. But when it does happen to adults... it usually winds up pretty bad. Not just a beating in the school yard.

I'm scared. Even if my town seems fairly safe and open. You never really know. And as I said, I'm emotionally all over the place these days, so it's only magifying things and making them seem worse than they already are.

ok..

pc..updated!!! (well as far as coh is concerned)

attire- changed to sweatpants and drinking coffee..now Im sweating but still have headaches

so if I may ask- the going rogue preorder..I have two accounts..do I have to buy the preorder for each acct? how does this worjk? and if I wait foor the disk to come out can I just load it into my pc and/or laptop to upgrade both accts?

Ummm. I'm guessing you have to buy it for each account Pogo. That is the way it usually works with expansions, and I haven't heard anything to the contrary. When I bought my copy yesterday it asked me which account I wanted to apply it to. I used to have two active copies, but since they gave us more slots, I don't use the one any more. And with things like this, the software doesn't matter as much as how they flag your account. And you only get one code, so.... I'm thinking you would have to buy it for every account.

*Snugs Neko and scritches her between the ears.*

I'll protects ya Neko! Sack peoples are good at that!

*He takes a moment to GLOMPIFY the VexXxa and grab a donut.*

Good morning....

NekoDaKittehPogoPogoVexxXaGlomperSheckyPhillyTwipp er

*picks up Fedor and hugs him tightly*

I really need to get a new plushie to hug when I'm feeling sad or scared... I don't have Ryo-ohki or my bear anymore and that makes me sad.

Also Pogo... there is um.... a slight fee for my advice. I figure about $50,000 should cover it. You know, when your brother in law pays you back.

*emerges from his room, sleepy, hair a mess*

hmmmm, good morning all

*walks over and ear scritchings the Neko, goes to the counter, and grab some tea*

*plops down on the couch*

*Snugs Neko.*

What happened to Ryo-ohki Neko?

Good morning Arachnid.

*Snugs Neko.*

What happened to Ryo-ohki Neko?

Good morning Arachnid.

RWAR * falls over passed out and snoring*

Curses Pogo.. That would have paid off my debts and set me up for my future medical expenses. Time to plan that bank robbery I guess.

And I lost Ryo-Ohki during one of my moves, Fedor. I don't exactly remember what happened to her, but at some point I didn't have her anymore. I want another one...

*looks at Fedor's recruiting poster for the special unit, Protect Kitteh*

*giggles*

That's cute, VexXxa