(My entry)
After Everything’s Over…Nothing
Like strumming a guitar and hitting a new chord like CLOCKWORK every fourth beat, that’s how I would describe my love for you. Always changing and never knowing what direction it might go. There were days when I thought I would need an ATLAS, just to find you. Of course I knew where you were in the physical sense. You lived in the next town over in a CRIMSON colored house. Your house numbers were yellow with a GREEN LINE going around them. You still had your Halloween decorations in your yard. The mail man must’ve done a double take at your GHOST, not realizing it was just a PHANTOM DECOY. I really enjoyed coming over to your house in the evenings after work. After a tough day at work, my body would feel a general MALAISE, but my heart was strong for you. Seeing your radiant AURA of beauty, would both humble and excite me. And for me the MOMENT OF GLORY, would be kissing your soft warm lips and whispering, “I love you.” Yes, those were the days when I felt I had a CLEAR MIND about us and that we were in love. However, like a COMING STORM, I could feel something slipping away from us. I don’t remember exactly what is was that made me doubt your love for me. If I had to pinpoint one factor it would be your FAMILY’s INFLUENCE over you. You had sisters, twin sisters to be exact, the three of you were tighter than any BLOOD BROTHERS I have ever known. When your family was around, which was often, you were your real self. My FOCUSED SENSES were starting to see a new person though, someone that I hadn’t fallen in love with, but rather an ECHO of someone I knew. To be honest I still loved you, even though your family was a real FREAKSHOW. Even your son from a previous relationship acted like a real BRAWLER. It was at this point that I knew we were in troubled waters. One night we went out to a movie and dinner. It was to be our last time together. Once we parted ways, I was distraught. You were BLIND to that fact. I laid in my bed alone that night, constantly tossing and thinking about the future. The next day I called you to discuss the future. We met at the Greek restaurant, HERACLES’ restaurant. The waitress sat us next to the 5th COLUMN by the door. I explained to you that we shouldn’t be together. If we stayed together we would only be hurting ourselves, not like some DOMINATRIX disaster but like a suicidal tango on the edge of the unknown. Perhaps my words weren’t clear, but I know you heard me when I said, “We’re through!” You left with tears in your eyes, looking back at me like some SHADOWY FIGURE. I left biting my lip and doubt in my eyes. Was I a fool to leave you? Was I smart to let you go? All I knew was that I was experiencing a feeling of terrible FREEDOM. After everything we were to each other, all that was left was a PORTAL to nothing. There were nights I felt the LIBERTY to be myself again. There were nights I felt so horribly LOST. Now that some time has passed, I suppose we did the right thing. I didn’t end up with nothing like I previously thought. No more CONFUSION over this matter in my mind, I resolved. For the brief time we were together, I loved someone with all my heart and in return I was loved too. That is enough for me to be content and get some REST. I now lay my head down and dream about love in a realm where everything is possible, a realm where my heart has a final VICTORY.
Unfortunately mmp and I lost power about 90 minutes ago. I am posting from a phone now lol. The rest of this event will be rescheduled for 5 pm eastern tomorrow. Many apologies for the inconvenience.
In general, I like new things. 