A belated "Thank You" and "I'm Sorry"

I decided to do this here considering I didn't spend all my time on Infinity, and I figured if I'm going to do it right why not put it in general?




I gave this a lot of thought over the past few weeks since the announcement of the shutdown of the game, the studio and, as is obvious, our boards. Over the years I haven't been the most sincere or the most articulated of posters--I've gone about doing illogical and malicious things that I regret from the bottom of my heart. I wanted this to be a sort of "sorry" for my behavior, posts, actions, etc. I've matured a lot since back then, especially emotionally (I was going through difficult times--no excuse for my actions in this regard), and I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times I said something painful, I'm sorry for the times I've been indirectly or directly involved in an activity that caused you grief or sorrow, I'm sorry for anything I've written on these boards that has been completely absurd or upsetting, and I'm sorry for all the times I struck out in a compromising or vicious manner. I do not wish to see the Cities (Villains and Heroes alike) go and leave ill-will towards anyone left lingering, especially not with the passing of a monumental community and game. I realize efforts are being made, but I want this to stand irregardless of the outcome of the game's future.
And with apologies comes the realization that I wish I could fix the mistakes I made and the behavior that I expressed through unconventional means. Reality is a painful well of suffering and back-peddling--I can only ask for forgiveness and live with sins I have committed. I realize I was wrong, I realize I was cruel, I realize I was too personal and emotionally compromised, yet the points of this apology is to make one thing clear: I understand and accept the things I have done, and I am fully aware I was in the wrong. You know who you are in some form or another, and you know what I've done. I am truly, deeply remorseful for potentially ruining your experiences.



And as for this next part, I wish to extend my gratitude to my home server of Infinity, as well as Protector and Guardian. My time spent on those servers was immensely enjoyable, creating within me a well of memories and emotions that I will happily invoke through nostalgic remembrance. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the fun task forces, the exciting strike forces, my first steps into the city, the sense of adventure, and for the all the fish I received or was denied (trust me, I remember being denied that fish--I remember you). Thanks for all the wondrous, incomprehensible moments that I was witness to within our cities, both hero and villain. I will never forget my first and last encounters with the Hydra--our team was whipped on both occasions, barely overcoming the situation with a bit of luck and some good-ole-fashioned heroic elbow grease. My first Hamidon raid on Villain side, the only one I ever witnessed as a victory over the might of that monstrosity. Those weekend TFs and SFs with the Infinity squad (you guys were awesome ), the Jello Shooters chat (my god that channel is incredible ), and my quiet evenings on Guardian with a friend or two (a relaxing time worth at least two)--these experiences have shaped the community in my eyes. If you read anything, read this: thank you from the depths of my heart for giving the city a soul, and for giving me memories worth keeping.

As a final note to the developers still with us or departed to other projects: thank you for making this game accessible and slow-riding for solo players. I cannot begin to express my gratitude at the ability to do just about anything solo, as well as doing it at my leisure and pace. I rarely stumble upon a game that gives you such freedoms solo as City of Heroes and City of Villains have. Thank you for your continued dedication to the game's future and for the dedication you've shown in past projects--I would not have been able to enjoy the game so completely as I have were it not for your efforts. You have my thanks, my gratitude, and hopefully my money. Should you save the city in some form or another or move on to new projects I will always remember this shining gem in the darkness of the MMO market that was born of your visions, hard work and investments. I salute you.


From your not-so-recognized forumite to a community that he has loved for nearly a decade: my belated gratitude, apologies, and hopes. May we enjoy a few more rounds together in the coming weeks. Thank you so much!