Westley

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What's with the name change?

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Here you go.

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"welcomed you to our community all those months back with open arms"

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I like how you put that in quotes, because I definitely remember the "welcome" I got from a few people here when I first came to town.

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If you need to constantly be the center of attention get a dog.

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If there's all these people that think I'm doing this "to be the center of attention" then don't give me any. I'm not doing it to be the center of attention, although I'm sure you'll think that way no matter what. I made this thread to PREVENT me from being the "center of attention" in the future, by finding one of two ways to resolve any future issues.

I was told that medication would do me no good. And I do care, but it's so tiring to go through everything, it wears you out, mind and soul.

Maybe I should get a second medical opinion on the medication.

I just did a PuG Positron FULL team at a completely random time about two weeks ago with whoever would join.

We got it done in a think a little under 3 hours, not "skipping" or stealthing ANYTHING. Fighting all the way to the end of each mission.

I see no problem here.

Edited to add the fact that it was a full team.

I would love to resurrect Philotic Knight from the grave and give you some bubbles to make it boring and easy, if you'll have him.

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Thanks, Yoda. Then I guess I'll be doing a lot of BOTH.

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See, this is the kind of thing I'm talking about. I just typed that out and hit enter and smiled, because I thought it was clever that I got the reference. After I hit enter and sat there for a minute, I realized that it could be construed as some form of insult.

That was not my intention.


To go into more depth to try to explain the difference. In this case, I would think that everyone that saw that as an insult would be "wrong" because that was not the point of the post. So they would be "wrong".

But in reality, I'm the one that's "wrong" because it's the societal norm to carefully construct your sentences to not offend. So in that case everyone else is "right" and I'm wrong.

It's like some kind of invisible wall that separates me and those like me from the rest of the world... and I can either try to change everyone else (impossible) OR try to compensate for my "difference" (easier, but still hard).

That being said, trying to compensate for my "difference" is NOT changing who I am, because who I am by nature wished to offend no-one. I'm just somewhat jaded at being misunderstood and mis-interpreted all my life. So much so that I've for the most part given up. It's tiring to have to constantly explain yourself.

Thanks, Yoda. Then I guess I'll be doing a lot of BOTH.

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This is the first time I can ever recall someone asking not to be bubbled, and for Dispersion Bubble to be turned off. WTF?

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When were you diagnosed with Asperger's?

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Let's see, it's.. June now? About 5 months ago. By a doctor that's been dealing with both childhood and adult autism spectrum for almost as long as I've been alive.

That being said, I'm not "hiding" behind anything, and I'm not using it as an "excuse" either. I'm presenting it as a fact. This is the way that my brain is wired, and although I can often times account for this irregularity in something such as a forum post, where I have the time to sit there and think about things, in-game it's not as easy.

It's the same as the difference between writing a letter and talking with someone on the phone. With a letter, you can take all the time you need, so I can take the time to carefully go over everything and make sure it says what I want it to say. On the phone, silence is usually taken as the person either not listening, or being "slow". And not slow in the good way.

So, often times in chat I say things that offend people. That's just the reality of the situation. It's essentially fate, and I can't change that any more than I can change the way my brain is wired. It's not like for example Bipolar or Boderline Personality Disorder (which my ex had), it's not a chemical imbalance that can be corrected with medication. It's actually an "abnormality" in the way that the brain is hard-wired to think that developed at an early age. Though I prefer to say it's just a difference, not an abnormality.

Going through my life history with my psychologist, we've basically determined that I've had this condition my entire life, but my naturally high IQ (not being conceited, just fact) has helped me to "compensate" for this MOST of the time so that it wasn't noticeable to anyone.

It was only after I was out of school, out of college, and out of any situation where you are "forced" into interacting with people on a personal level that I began to feel like something was up. That's when I realized that I never DID make any friends in any situation that wasn't "forced". I don't make casual conversation with people, everything that I say and do always has to have a "purpose" or direction.

You know how most people have conversations about their lives, friends, family, and such? Gossip, I think it's called. And that's how peer foundations are often built. Well, I can't do that because it has "no point", meaning that my brain doesn't pay attention because it's not considered important information to any project that I'm a part of. So, I can't talk with people on a normal level in the real world like most people do.

It explains a lot of things actually, but this post is already going on too long.

Let's just sum it up by saying, I have this issue, it's not going away, I can TRY to compensate by taking my time to think out everything before I type it in-game, but sometime that's just not possible and my fingers just start moving as fast as my head does.

So I'm going to offend people, it's inevitable, because what I think is harmless is often times very harmful or offensive to other people.

I'm starting to ramble a bit trying to explain the way it feels....


Imagine this: Your brain is designed to work in one specific way, a certain "logic" or set of rules to always follow. And as such you assume that everyone thinks in the same way you do, because it's the only way that "makes sense". Now imagine that you're put into the world where people come to the same conclusion you do.... MUCH of the time, but not always. And even when they do come to the same conclusions, it's often times in different ways and for different reasons. Well, this is completely alien to me as there is only "one way" to see things.... it's so frustrating and hard to deal with.

I KNOW that I'm the odd one, I KNOW that I'm the one that sees things in the "weird way", but it's hard to live in a world where you think that everyone else is the odd one and sees things in the weird way....

I don't know exactly where I'm going with this, but maybe my ramblings will make some sense to someone.

Anyways, I'm going to TRY, and that's the key word there.... to SLOW DOWN my fingers and go over things more thouroughly before letting them move in the future....


...key word once again, TRY... no promises.

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Yeah, it is..... half of forumites and chat room people do it. Guess most people on the internet have Aspergers.

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You might be surprised. I've heard of studies that show that there is a LARGE quantity of people who either knowingly or unknowingly have the condition that spend their time online because it's more conducive to social interactions. Because we have to deal with much less of the "nonverbal communication" that they don't understand. Makes sense to me.

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I also think you hide behind it sometimes and use it as an excuse to say assanine and hateful things

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Asinine, definitely. Hateful? How can you say hateful things when you don't hate anyone?

If you want a costume contest without griefer interruption, you could always use Studio B in any of the AE buildings. It suppresses powers.

Any character can solo. This is coming from a guy that played an FF/Elec Defender almost exclusively for four years, solo about half the time.

The question really is, how much PATIENCE do you have. If you don't have the patience to solo a Defender as-is, why aren't you playing something else that you'll enjoy solo-ing better?

By the way wolfie, Sooner, this part should sound particularly familiar...

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For example a person with AS may engage in a one-sided, long-winded speech about a favorite topic, while misunderstanding or not recognizing the listener's feelings or reactions, such as a need for privacy or haste to leave.[5] This social awkwardness has been called "active but odd".[1] This failure to react appropriately to social interaction may appear as disregard for other people's feelings, and may come across as insensitive.

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*cough cough*

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J, I'm a [StrikeOut]LIVING[/StrikeOut] WALKING CONTRADICTION.

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...and I ain't got noooo rights.

(Sorry, I couldn't resist. Browsing through PK's posts will get you all kinds of places.)

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I don't get the reference....

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I could not care less about this whole silly thread, but I simply want to interject that people who cannot learn to get along with others tend to not go very far in life... It's a pretty important "life skill" to have.

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Unfortunately for me, it's actually a "condition" that I have so needless to say, sometimes just asking outright is the best way to go.

i wuz bein me!

Very logical, but #1 isn't going to happen. I know what's irritating people and it's my natural personality. That's not changing. I went through enough of that in my young life. I'm not changing for anyone anymore. Thus the poll. If people don't want me to play in their sandbox, I'll take my toys and go home.

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So.. it doesn't really matter what Protector votes, now does it?

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It does because I decided it does. I decided to accept whatever the outcome is. So yes, it is my decision. My decision to follow through with what I say I'm going to do, that's called integrity. So if more people stand by their opinion like wolfie up there and their votes are more than the people that want me to stay, then I'll be gone.

It's all about integrity. I admire wolfie for her integrity, and I show my integrity by accepting the results of the "poll".

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FF auto winz!

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See, now you're getting it!

J, I'm a LIVING CONTRADICTION.

I really don't like being where I'm not wanted.

I want to make fun of people that WANT to tolerate me making fun of them.

If I get enough "Stay" votes, does that mean I get to tell all the haters to S T F U?

How could anyone not love you, BB?

I think the more important question is.... what's a "drawg" and why are we locking onto it?